OK, people have told me
OK, people have told me that my current output in terms of sheer "useless comments per time-unit" just isn't up to standard. and i admit that i've been week. i've fallen for the temptations that abound. the temptation of a lovely girlfriend, the temptation of exciting things happening at work, the lure of alchohol and it's consequences in the shady form of 30 hour inactive periods.... basically i've fallen for every passing temptation to get involved, do things, and rear up on my hind legs.
as i mentioned, icon medialab made a large acquisition, some ensuing organizational changes, and a lot of focus on a few key projects. in short this has meant lot's of very interesting work, a renewed team spirit and a kick-ass attitude...... welcome new times, although i still, as always, have my doubts about what i want to be doing, where i want to do it, and how much i can afford to let it mean to me. the zeitgeist speaks of identification through work, of the luxury of having a job you love, of really feeling the possibilities for growth, of commiting yourself 100% to the job at hand. the zeitgeist conveniently forgets to mention that there are other things in life that could be getting that same attention. although i must adm,it that i am fairly sceptical of the, at times, prevalent attitude that i'm spending too much time at work, stressing myself too much, giving too much of myself. it just so happens that i enjoy it, get a lot of intellectual challenges, and a lot of very interesting human interaction at that place called work. some people fill their time besides work with a sport, with the challenge of competition, physical strains and drive. i fill the time at work with the challenge of competition, intellectual strain and drive.... how one is better than the other is beyond me, but then i've never seen the whole picture, or at least not the same whole picture as so many other people seem to see.....
at least, even though i'm dead tired now, from working most of last night, i can take the evening, visit my parents, and feel good about a job well done. and although it's far from perfect and you may see me leaving to pursue other things at some point, i doubt very much that i'll be running away screaming. on the contrary, i'll probably be slipping away, wondering every step of the way wether it was the right decision, and repeatedly telling myself why it was, and how great things will be afterwards.....
